Life...sometimes

Thursday, January 29, 2004

I am a a helping hand...

Role Models
It trips me out what our society deems as a role model sometimes...it really does. So just because someone has some phenomenal physical ability, such as our athletes, or can sing, or act really well, they are deemed as role models for the youth. Why? What did they do to merit the role model status? Nothing. And then things happen like, sexual infidelity, drug use and posession, and the list goes on for miles. Now, they're bad role models. Well, they weren't role models in the first place! I think that one should act as a role model, and THEN we can deem whether or not they are one. It's like popularity or fame denotes instant role model status, but a lot of famous people aren't necessarily good or moral or ethical people. Fame and fortune do not require one to be a good person at all. So who do you consider as a role model and how does one get there?

Defensivity
I was talking about getting really defensive with one of my friends earlier today, and we pointed out what makes us get defensive or what makes us really mad when people do certain things. It was pretty cool I thought, because it's good to know what your weaknesses, or flaws are. But I only think it's good to know this stuff if one plans on at least making an effort on doing something about it. Otherwise it's just a moo point. And yes, I mean MOO. "A moo point. It's like a cow's opinion...it doesn't really matter. It's mooooooooooo." He he he.

****talkers
I REALLY have no respect people who talk about someone behind their back...like right when they leave. Sometimes, I feel like I don't want to talk to certain people here because that's how some of them are, right when you leave, they'll say something about you. That's not cool, and the worst thing is is that they kiss ass to the person when they're around...it's really whack. I also don't like when people make inside jokes, not like about things like experiences, or a funny thing they both saw, but like an inside joke that's directed towards a particular person and that person is there. I mean, some of the people they've been talking about have been here for like 10 years and there's been nothing but improvement, so the fact that they have all these negative things to say has no grounds. I think some people are just haters and that's how they'll always be. Damn, it's irritating. I'm just kinda scared to see the day I feel like the inside joke is about me, cuz I might blow up. It's completely unprofessional, more comparable to a playground atmosphere than a professional one. That's what makes me think sometimes, that I might not be here for a very very long time, because the atmosphere is very competitive in a bad way, the way where people put each other down and bicker with one another. It's just not healty....so unless there are improvements, then this is just another stepping stone.

Great moments in history
"Do you know why hamburgers are round?"
"Duh, because the tomatoes are round."

"Keep tomorrow in mind, but LIVE for today."

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

I am twirly wind cartoon thing,

I hate button-fly's man, I really do. I mean, I don't go pee very often(bladder control), but when I do, it sucks having to button all those buttons back on. Unfortunately today, I had to pee 4 times(so far) and it's been a beyotch each time. Makes me appreciate the zipper so much more. I still don't get what's so cool about button-fly's. I remember way back when they were the craze...well, not for me.

My neck has been hurting consitently since my b-day, I know I know, it was MY drunk ass that probably hurt it, but still, it hurts, 'an I no like it. I wonder if I can go see someone about it... I'm supposed to play ball tomorrow w/ some of the boys and then this weekend is...MAMMOTH BABY, MAMMOTH!!! I gotta make sure I'm in, well, definately not peak condition, but SOME type of condition to be doing all this stuff...it's time to get into shape. I was gonna run tonight, but I figure I'll be doing lots of exercising over the next 4 or 5 days, so I'll wait til after the trip to do the regular workout thang.

"Where there is hatred, let me sow love. Where there is injury, pardon. Where there is doubt, faith."
Saint Francis of Assisi (1181 - 1226)

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

I am a restored PC...

2 for 2 something? Sweet
Two 1/4 pounders for $2.50. Hell yeah. I'm gonna go pick some up and the come back and study for lunch. I am about 6 days behind my original schedule, but I am officially getting started today. I am trying to set a basic schedule of working out/studying and hanging out, so hopefully everything works out okay. I kindof skimmed through my old books and realized, I need to do a lot of reviewing. Okay, I have until April 17th to get myself prepared for this thing. Damn, I hope that's enough time.

It amazes me that there are people out there that believe that they can do no wrong. They constantly find some type of justification such that it places the blame elsewhere. Or not even blame, they just find reasons that make everything they do ok. It's like formulating your own rules to fit one's life. Like for example, I read in some book how people modify their faith sometimes so as to fit their life. The book said that that was wrong because we're supposed to tune our lives to fit God, not the other way around, which I totally agree with. Or like in relationships even, when one person does something that everyone else would say was wrong, but they've justified it so it isn't wrong. I guess sometimes, people can get pretty arrogant to be so high and mighty. This was not directed toward anything in particular, I just remember reading about it, and then I saw some tv episode about it(not sure which one anymore) and I remembered I just wanted to blog about it.

Strange but true...
Dude, the weirdest thing happened earlier today. I've been using my desk drawers all this week so far to fill out my expense report, show someone my emergency lunch(can of ravioli), show them my snacks, and just to store stuff and get my stapler and things like that. Well, at one point, I remembered that I had locked my desk drawer before I left for Joizey last last Friday, and then when I tried to open my drawer after that, it wouldn't! It was freakin locked? WTF? It was sooooooooooooo weird! Maybe I have some hidden telepathic powers or something, maybe I was willing them to open, maybe I'm just in the twilight zone...maybe that's it...

Thought for the day
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

"A good idea is nothing without follow through"

Monday, January 26, 2004

Here's to the beauty of Music...

Anotated American Pie - Rich Kulawiec

AMERICAN PIE by Don McLean

The entire song is a tribute to Buddy Holly and a commentary on how rock and roll changed in the years since his death. McLean seems to be lamenting the lack of "danceable" music in rock and roll and (in part) attributing that lack to the absence of Buddy Holly et. al.

(Verse 1)
A long, long time ago...

"American Pie" reached #1 in the US in 1972, but the album containing it was released in 1971. Buddy Holly died in 1959.

I can still remember how
That music used to make me smile.
And I knew if I had my chance,
That I could make those people dance,
And maybe they'd be happy for a while.

One of early rock and roll's functions was to provide dance music for various social events. McLean recalls his desire to become a musician playing that sort of music.

But February made me shiver,

Buddy Holly died on February 3, 1959 in a plane crash in Iowa during a snowstorm.

With every paper I'd deliver,

Don McLean's only job besides being a full-time singer-songwriter was being a paperboy.

Bad news on the doorstep...
I couldn't take one more step.
I can't remember if I cried
When I read about his widowed bride

Holly's recent bride was pregnant when the crash took place; she had a miscarriage shortly afterward.

But something touched me deep inside,
The day the music died.

The same plane crash that killed Buddy Holly also took the lives of Richie Valens ("La Bamba") and The Big Bopper ("Chantilly Lace"). Since all three were so prominent at the time, February 3, 1959 became known as "The Day The Music Died". So...

(Refrain)
Bye bye Miss American Pie,

Don McLean dated a Miss America candidate during the pageant. (unconfirmed)

Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
Them good ol' boys were drinkin whiskey and rye
Singing "This'll be the day that I die,
This'll be the day that I die."

One of Holly's hits was "That'll be the Day"; the chorus contains the line "That'll be the day that I die".

(Verse 2)

Did you write the book of love,

"The Book of Love" by the Monotones; hit in 1958.

And do you have faith in God above,
If the Bible tells you so?

In 1955, Don Cornell did a song entitled "The Bible Tells Me So". Rick Schubert pointed this out, and mentioned that he hadn't heard the song, so it was kinda difficult to tell if it was what McLean was referencing. Anyone know for sure? There's also an old Sunday School song which goes: "Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so"

Now do you believe in rock 'n roll?

The Lovin' Spoonful had a hit in 1965 with John Sebastian's "Do you Believe in Magic?". The song has the lines: "Do you believe in magic" and "It's like trying to tell a stranger 'bout rock and roll."

Can music save your mortal soul?
And can you teach me how to dance real slow?

Dancing slow was an important part of early rock and roll dance events -- but declined in importance through the 60's as things like psychedelia and the 10-minute guitar solo gained prominence.

Well I know you're in love with him
'Cause I saw you dancing in the gym

Back then, dancing was an expression of love, and carried a connotation of committment. Dance partners were not so readily exchanged as they would be later.

You both kicked off your shoes

A reference to the beloved "sock hop". (Street shoes tear up wooden basketball floors, so dancers had to take off their shoes.)

Man, I dig those rhythm 'n' blues

Some history. Before the popularity of rock and roll, music, like much else in the U. S., was highly segregated. The popular music of black performers for largely black audiences was called, first, "race music", later softened to rhythm and blues. In the early 50s, as they were exposed to it through radio personalities such as Allan Freed, white teenagers began listening, too. Starting around 1954, a number of songs from the rhythm and blues charts began appearing on the overall popular charts as well, but usually in cover versions by established white artists, (e. g. "Shake Rattle and Roll", Joe Turner, covered by Bill Haley; "Sh-Boom", the Chords, covered by the Crew-Cuts; "Sincerely", the Moonglows, covered by the Mc Guire Sisters; Tweedle Dee, LaVerne Baker, covered by Georgia Gibbs). By 1955, some of the rhythm and blues artists, like Fats Domino and Little Richard were able to get records on the overall pop charts. In 1956 Sun records added elements of country and western to produce the kind of rock and roll tradition that produced Buddy Holly. (Thanks to Barry Schlesinger for this historical note. ---Rsk)

I was a lonely teenage broncin' buck
With a pink carnation and a pickup truck

"A White Sport Coat (And a Pink Carnation)", was a hit for Marty Robbins in 1957. The pickup truck has endured as a symbol of sexual independence and potency, especially in a Texas context. (Also, Jimmy Buffet does a song about "a white sport coat and a pink crustacean". :-) )

But I knew that I was out of luck
The day the music died
I started singing...

Refrain
(Verse 3)

Now for ten years we've been on our own

McLean was writing this song in the late 60's, about ten years after the crash.

And moss grows fat on a rolling stone

It's unclear who the "rolling stone" is supposed to be. It could be Dylan, since "Like a Rolling Stone" (1965) was his first major hit; and since he was busy writing songs extolling the virtues of simple love, family and contentment while staying at home (he didn't tour from '66 to '74) and raking in the royalties. This was quite a change from the earlier, angrier Dylan. The "rolling stone" could also be Elvis, although I don't think he'd started to pork out by the late sixties. It could refer to rock and rollers in general, and the changes that had taken place in the business in the 60's, especially the huge amounts of cash some of them were beginning to make, and the relative stagnation that entered the music at the same time. Or, perhaps it's a reference to the stagnation in rock and roll. Or, finally, it could refer to the Rolling Stones themselves; a lot of musicians were angry at the Stones for "selling out". Howard Landman points out that John Foxx of Ultravox was sufficiently miffed to write a song titled "Life At Rainbow's End (For All The Tax Exiles On Main Street)". The Stones at one point became citizens of some other country merely to save taxes.

But that's not how it used to be
When the jester sang for the King and Queen

The jester is Bob Dylan, as will become clear later. There are several interpretations of king and queen: some think that Elvis Presley is the king, which seems pretty obvious. The queen is said to be either Connie Francis or Little Richard. But see the next note. An alternate interpretation is that this refers to the Kennedys -- the king and queen of "Camelot" -- who were present at a Washington DC civil rights rally featuring Martin Luther King. (There's a recording of Dylan performing at this rally.)

In a coat he borrowed from James Dean

In the movie "Rebel Without a Cause", James Dean has a red windbreaker that holds symbolic meaning throughout the film (see note at end). In one particularly intense scene, Dean lends his coat to a guy who is shot and killed; Dean's father arrives, sees the coat on the dead man, thinks it's Dean, and loses it. On the cover of "The Freewheelin' Bob Dylan", Dylan is wearing just such as red windbreaker, and is posed in a street scene similar to one shown in a well-known picture of James Dean. Bob Dylan played a command performance for the Queen of England. He was *not* properly attired, so perhaps this is a reference to his apparel.

And a voice that came from you and me

Bob Dylan's roots are in American folk music, with people like Pete Seeger and Woody Guthrie.
Folk music is by definition the music of the masses, hence the "...came from you and me".

Oh, and while the King was looking down
The jester stole his thorny crown

This could be a reference to Elvis's decline and Dylan's ascendance. (i.e. Presley is looking down from a height as Dylan takes his place.) The thorny crown might be a reference to the price of fame. Dylan has said that he wanted to be as famous as Elvis, one of his early idols.

The courtroom was adjourned,
No verdict was returned.

This could be the trial of the Chicago Seven.

And while Lennon read a book on Marx,

Literally, John Lennon reading about Karl Marx; figuratively, the introduction of radical politics into the music of the Beatles. (Of course, he could be referring to Groucho Marx, but that doesn't seem quite consistent with McLean's overall tone. On the other hand, some of the wordplay in Lennon's lyrics and books is reminiscint of Groucho.) The "Marx-Lennon" wordplay has also been used by others, most notably the Firesign Theatre on the cover of their album "How Can You Be In Two Places At Once When You're Not Anywhere At All?". Also, a famous French witticism was "Je suis Marxiste, tendance Groucho."; "I'm a Marxist of the Groucho variety".

The quartet practiced in the park

There are two schools of thought about this; the obvious one is the Beatles playing in Shea Stadium, but note that the previous line has John Lennon *doing something else at the same time*. This tends to support the theory that this is a reference to the Weavers, who were blacklisted during the McCarthy era. McLean had become friends with Lee Hays of the Weavers in the early 60's while performing in coffeehouses and clubs in upstate New York and New York City. He was also well-acquainted with Pete Seeger; in fact, McLean, Seeger, and others took a trip on the Hudson river singing anti-pollution songs at one point. Seeger's LP "God Bless the Grass" contains many of these songs.

And we sang dirges in the dark

A "dirge" is a funeral or mourning song, so perhaps this is meant literally...or, perhaps, this is a reference to some of the new "art rock" groups which played long pieces not meant for dancing.

The day the music died.
We were singing...

Refrain
(Verse 4)

Helter Skelter in a summer swelter

"Helter Skelter" is a Beatles song which appears on the "white" album. Charles Manson, claiming to have been "inspired" by the song (through which he thought God and/or the devil were taking to him) led his followers in the Tate-LaBianca murders. Is "summer swelter" a reference to the "Summer of Love" or perhaps to the "long hot summer" of Watts?

The birds flew off with the fallout shelter
Eight miles high and falling fast

The Byrd's "Eight Miles High" was on their late 1966 release "Fifth Dimension". It was one of the first records to be widely banned because of supposedly drug-oriented lyrics.

It landed foul on the grass

One of the Byrds was busted for possesion of marijuana.

The players tried for a forward pass

Obviously a football metaphor, but about what? It could be the Rolling Stones, i.e. they were waiting for an opening which really didn't happen until the Beatles broke up.

With the jester on the sidelines in a cast

On July 29, 1966, Dylan crashed his Triumph 55 motorcycle while riding near his home in Woodstock, New York. He spent nine months in seclusion while recuperating from the accident.

Now the halftime air was sweet perfume

Drugs, man. Well, now, wait a minute; that's probably too obvious. It's possible that this line and the next few refer to the 1968 Democratic National Convention. The "sweet perfume" is probably tear gas.

While sergeants played a marching tune

Following from the thought above, the sergeants would be the Chicago Police and the Illinois National Guard, who marched the protestors out of the park and into jail. Alternatively, this could refer to the Beatles' "Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band". Or, perhaps McLean refers to the Beatles' music in general as "marching" because it's not music for dancing. Or, finally, the "marching tune" could be the draft.

We all got up to dance
Oh, but we never got the chance

The Beatles' 1966 Candlestick Park concert only lasted 35 minutes. Or, following on from the previous comment, perhaps he meant that there wasn't any music to dance to.

'Cause the players tried to take the field,
The marching band refused to yield.

Following on from the Chicago reference above, this could be another comment on protests. If the players are the protestors at Kent State, and the marching band the Ohio National Guard...
This could be a reference to the dominance of the Beatles on the rock and roll scene. For instance, the Beach Boys released "Pet Sounds" in 1966 -- an album which featured some of the same sort of studio and electronic experimentation as "Sgt. Pepper" (1967) -- but the album sold poorly. Some folks think this refers to either the 1968 Deomcratic Convention or Kent State. This might also be a comment about how the dominance of the Beatles in the rock world led to more "pop art" music, leading in turn to a dearth of traditional rock and roll. Or finally, this might be a comment which follows up on the earlier reference to the draft: the government/military-industrial-complex establishment refused to accede to the demands of the peace movement.

Do you recall what was revealed,
The day the music died?
We started singing

Refrain
(Verse 5)

And there we were all in one place

Woodstock.

A generation lost in space

Some people think this is a reference to the US space program, which it might be; but that seems a bit too literal. Perhaps this is a reference to hippies, who were sometimes known as the "lost generation", partially because of their particularly acute alientation from their parents, and partially because of their presumed preoccupation with drugs. It could also be a reference to the awful TV show, "Lost in Space", whose title was sometimes used as a synonym for someone who was rather high... but I keep hoping that McLean had better taste. :-)

With no time left to start again

The "lost generation" spent too much time being stoned, and had wasted their lives? Or, perhaps, their preference for psychedelia had pushed rock and roll so far from Holly's music that it couldn't be retrieved.

So come on Jack be nimble Jack be quick

Probably a reference to Mick Jagger of the Rolling Stones; "Jumpin' Jack Flash" was released in May, 1968.

Jack Flash sat on a candlestick

The Stones' Candlestick park concert? (unconfirmed)

'Cause fire is the devil's only friend

It's possible that this is a reference to the Grateful Dead's "Friend of the Devil". An alternative interpretation of the last four lines is that they may refer to Jack Kennedy and his quick decisions during the Cuban Missile Crisis; the candlesticks/fire refer to ICBMs and nuclear war.

And as I watched him on the stage
My hands were clenched in fists of rage
No angel born in hell
Could break that satan's spell

While playing a concert at the Altamont Speedway in 1968, the Stones appointed members of the Hell's Angels to work security (on the advice of the Grateful Dead). In the darkness near the front of the stage, a young man named Meredith Hunter was beaten and stabbed to death -- by the Angels. Public outcry that the song "Sympathy for the Devil" had somehow incited the violence caused the Stones to drop the song from their show for the next six years. This incident is chronicled in the documentary film "Gimme Shelter". It's also possible that McLean views the Stones as being negatively inspired (remember, he had an extensive religious background) by virtue of "Sympathy for the Devil", "Their Satanic Majesties' Request" and so on. I find this a bit puzzling, since the early Stones recorded a lot of "roots" rock and roll, including Buddy Holly's "Not Fade Away".

And as the flames climbed high into the night
To light the sacrificial rite

The most likely interpretation is that McLean is still talking about Altamont, and in particular Mick Jagger's prancing and posing while it was happening. The sacrifice is Meredith Hunter, and the bonfires around the area provide the flames. (It could be a reference to Jimi Hendrix burning his Stratocaster at the Monterey Pop Festival, but that was in 1967 and this verse is set in 1968.)

I saw satan laughing with delight

If the above is correct, then Satan would be Jagger.

The day the music died
He was singing...

Refrain
(Verse 6)

I met a girl who sang the blues

Janis Joplin.

And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away

Janis died of an accidental heroin overdose on October 4, 1970.

I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music years before

There are two interpretations of this: The "sacred store" was Bill Graham's Fillmore West, one of the great rock and roll venues of all time. Alternatively, this refers to record stores, and their longtime (then discontinued) practice of allowing customers to preview records in the store. (What year did the Fillmore West close?) It could also refer to record stores as "sacred" because this is where one goes to get "saved". (See above lyric "Can music save your mortal soul?")

But the man there said the music wouldn't play

Perhaps he means that nobody is interested in hearing Buddy Holly et.al.'s music? Or, as above, the discontinuation of the in-store listening booths.

And in the streets the children screamed

"Flower children" being beaten by police and National Guard troops; in particular, perhaps, the People's Park riots in Berkeley in 1969 and 1970.

The lovers cried and the poets dreamed

The trend towards psychedelic music in the 60's?

But not a word was spoken
The church bells all were broken

It could be that the broken bells are the dead musicians: neither can produce any more music.

And the three men I admire most
The Father Son and Holy Ghost

Holly, The Big Bopper, and Valens -- or -- Hank Williams, Presley and Holly -- or -- JFK, Martin Luther King, and Bobby Kennedy -- or -- or the Catholic aspects of the deity. McLean had attended several Catholic schools.

They caught the last train for the coast

Could be a reference to wacky California religions, or could just be a way of saying that they've left (or died -- western culture often uses "went west" as a synonym for dying). Or, perhaps this is a reference to the famous "God is Dead" headline in the New York Times. David Cromwell has suggested that this is an oblique reference to a line in Procol Harum's "Whiter Shade of Pale", but I'm not sure I buy that; for one thing, all of McLean's musical references are to much older "roots" rock and roll songs; and secondly, I think it's more likely that this line shows up in both songs simply because it's a common cultural metaphor.

The day the music died

This tends to support the conjecture that the "three men" were Holly/Bopper/Valens, since this says that they left on the day the music died.

And they were singing...
Refrain (2x)

I am a new year...

For some reason I am quite tired...I am not sure if I have fully adjusted back to PST, or what, but whatever...it's back to work in Torrance, and it's time to get crackin....

Okay, I survived my b-day...not w/o a few scars though, he he he. I've seen pictures of myself crawling underneath a car, ripping my shirt(again, how embarassing) and other stuff, but here I stand..errrr, sit, alive to blog about the tale. It was a lot of fun, and as I said in my e-mail to my friends, I feel so lucky to be blessed w/ such an awesome group of friends. Friends that "take care" of you and make sure you have to be taken care of later on, ha ha ha. But it was a memorable, or maybe not-so-much, evening. To say the least, I didn't feel totally great for the wedding the next day, but I got through that as well. Yesterday, the hangover was gone, but for some reason, my neck is killing me, so that has yet to disappear. Anyway, I had lots of fun...so many thanks to everyone who contributed to my b-day, whether by e-mail or by being there or whatever.

A lot of people like to make up lists of things they wanna do before they're xxx amount of years old, or a bunch of new year's resolutions. I guess I have combined those two and created a hybrid list of....

Things I want to do before my NEXT birthday
Keep a tab on this people...we'lll see how well I fared at age 27.

In no particular order of preference, but just easier to number....
1. Go to Hawaii
2. Get my EIT certification
3. Paint my room
4. Get in shape
5. Have been rid of smoking for at least 6 months...

Doesn't sound too farfetched, yet if I am not assertive enough, there exists the possibility that these goals may not be realized...here's to hard work for the upcoming year!

"We can learn a lot from crayons, some are sharp, some are dull, some have vibrant colors, others not, but they all live in the same neat little box."

Friday, January 23, 2004

I am a frozen bunch of carrots...

Damn, I'm experiencing my first below freezing weather...it's -2 outside right now....man, it is COOOOOOOOOOLD! I'm so glad I'm leaving in about 4 hours though....LA and warmer weather, here I come!!!! Woooohoooooooooooo!

To know or not to know
If you had a choice between knowing death was coming(well, it IS coming all the time, for everyone{sheesh, that was morbid}, but I'm talking like right about to come) or not ever knowing what hit you. Like say seeing the train coming right at you, or like dying in your sleep. Never knowing it was gonna happen. I'm not really sure which I would choose, but one of the cons I see in never seeing it come is that you never get to see your life flash before your eyes...ha ha ha, kidding, only kidding...I know it's a weird thought, but it was a thought, and I just had to jot it down...
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This is something that they keep on the wall at work here in Joizey, I thought it was pretty cool.

YOU CAN ACT AS SMART AS YOU ARE,
BUT ONLY IF YOUR PERSONALITY MATCHES YOUR INTELLIGENCE.

ONE OF THE BIGGEST HANDICAPS IS AN ARGUMENTATIVE PERSONALITY. OFTEN WITHOUT REALIZING IT, SOME PEOPLE LOOK FOR WAYS TO DISAGREE. THIS HABIT SETS THEM UP FOR MAKIG FOOLISH STATEMENTS.

THAT'S BECAUSE THEY OFTEN ENTER TERRITORY THAT ALREADY HAS BEEN EXAMINED BY PEOPLE WHO ARE MUCH MORE FAMILIAR WITH IT.

SMARTEN UP YOUR PERSONALITY, AND YOU'LL IMPROVE BOTH YOUR IMAGE AND YOUR FUNCTIONING.

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Man, driving through new york could totally be a video game...it is totally insane. You really gotta keep your wits about you in that area man. Dodging crazy cabbies, avoiding the occasional pedestrian that's crossing when they shouldn't be. Keeping an eye on one way streets, traffic in tunnels, ice, snow, all that. And I think I've developed a new-found respect for NY cab drivers... I mean, I survived 4 days of driving in lower Manhattan so far, but those guys do it all the time...for x hours a day....sheesh. Of course, there are the occasional sucky ass ones that try to run me off the road or what-not...but man, it is certainly a crazy thing to drive the streets of NYC. "NYC City! Boys, we gonna have ourselves' a hangin!" he he he, anyone know where that's from?

Another thing I experienced while out here in the bitter cold(though it isn't as cold as it was last week, thank goodness), is brushing and scraping snow off the windows in the morning. That'd be quite a beyotch to do every single day...and we Californians are quite lucky.
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Pics I wish I had while I was out here

-a dog with little boots on (pretty crazy lookin), this lady was walkin him down the street, and he had four little dog booties on. It looked kinda funny, cuz the dog didn't have one of those sweaters...so essentiallyl, he or she was naked except for the boots....four of them. Picture it, it's funny as hell.
-fight outside my hotel room, cops and the whole shebang...at the club downstairs, you could hear the fighting from a mile away, was exciting for about 5 minutes, then got annoying cuz I couldn't fall asleep w/ all the racket. I should've complained to the hotel to get a comp or something, but my company's paying anyway, so I don't really care.
-driving the wrong way on a one way street in manhattan(scary ass shit man). I'd have to tell you the whole story some other time, but it was insane...I had to dodge 2 cars, like they do in the movies, and the Japanese engineer w/ me was freakin out...I felt so bad for him. This, coming right after he told me I was a very "smooth" driver(comparing me to some other people who shall remain nameless, he he he). It freaked the hell out of me though, my heart was racing after said incident.
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negativite
-people who are constantly negative peeve me. It's just that type of attitude that doesn't get you anywhere from the getgo. I mean, say person A asks person B to do something, and person B says, "That's gonna take the whole day again." A- "Only for a short period of time though." B-"still, that's gonna take all day." Me-(in my head of course) No it won't, we did the same thing yesterday, and it didn't take all day. In fact, it took about half a day.
Homeboy wanted to go home after lunch just to avoid traffic. There's efficiency and then, there's just plain laziness and selfishness. Mind you, person A ranked above both B and me. I mean, on the most basic of terms, that's just insubordination(too strong of a word, but I can't htink of another one just yet), and an unwillingness to do what what you're asked to do. We're out here for work, and who are we to really decide that we wanna go back to the office just because of a little traffic...and I'm talking TOTALLY trying to avoid traffic, like at 2...dude, we could at least wait an hour and half and get a little more work done. That's why it takes him so long to do stuff I imagine, cuz he cuts things short because of things like traffic, or "it's gonna take all day" so he won't do it type attitude. Again, not one of the qualities in a well-oiled machine. I would really like for this team to become that well-oiled machine, and then, I could be the lazy and selfish one, muah ha ha ha!

Slacklines
I saw this show on the Discovery Channel last night about these dudes called slack liners. Basically, these guys make a tighrope in the canyons or mountains and stuff, and then they walk it. It's like a tightrope walker, except that the rope isn't tight, it has slack, hence the name...slacklining. So they are subject to the wind and stuff, it's freakin crazy man, the balance that they have. I couldn't believe what I was watching....amazing.

anecdote of the day
A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood.

Trying to make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face."

"Yes," the class said.

"Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn`t run into my feet? "
A little fellow shouted, "Cause your feet ain`t empty."

"Strangers...are just family you have yet to come to know."

Sunday, January 18, 2004

I am a Pilipino sno-cone...

The Flight...
It really is something to fly on a clear night. When flying over a fairly large city, it just looks absolutely in credible, the lights are just dazzling. And then there are those expansive stretches of nothingness, when you're looking down and you could just as well be looking at space sans the brilliant dots of the stars. I wish I had my camera handy so that I could post pictures,

here,


here,


and here...but alas, it was inaccessible.

Well, here I am back in my hotel room in Totowa. The weather is currently about 30, but feels like 14. Tomorrow, the low is gonna hit 9, man I wonder what the hell that's gonna feel like. Well, it's definitely not gonna feel like hell. Anyway, I guess it's time for bed...gotta make the East Coast adjustment.


Anecdote of the day
The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.

"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, `There`s Jennifer, she`s a lawyer,` or `That`s Michael, He`s a doctor.` A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there`s the teacher, She`s dead."

"Sometimes, believing in something that may or may not be true is the most important thing a person canhold on to."

Friday, January 16, 2004

I am a hurting back...

creaks in the joints
I am definitely getting older...I hurt my back the other night when I was messin around w/ the boys after the Laker game on Wednesday. We were trying to get on Souther California Sports Report cuz the background during the show is the outside of Staples...well, we were jumping up and down and I think I pulled something. Hasn't been right since...and I wanted to start working out again, so there goes that idea for at least another week. I haven't really been sleeping well either cuz it hurts when I move in my sleep and it wakes me up...maybe it's because I haven't been working out or being active that this happened...okay, time to rehabilitate...

A couple of coworkers and I were just having some random conversations earlier...and I realized that some people are pretty sheltered and can be quite naive, and it's pretty crazy because they're so old. Like one girl was saying how, "All guys are afraid of getting married," or "I'm afraid to drive because blah blah blah." And it's just crazy how some people's views on life are...there's one guy that's about to get married(in October) and he's just so blunt about things. It's cool though, cuz he's pretty set, but there's things I don't particularly agree with, such as he never wants to have children. I mean, I totally respect that, but it was just his view that I was kindof "ehhed" by. He said that children are a burden, and that they cost, so-many dollars, dadadada. Well, I guess that's enough reason to know why you don't want kids, but it just seems like it's all focused on the negative..he had nothing positive to say about children, which I think is just so sad. It just generally makes me sad that there are so many people who have such a bleak(well that might be a little too harsh of a word) outlook on life. There is so much good to look at, sucks how we focus on the bad. And yeah, people might think that it's easy to say that when everything's on the up and up, but it hasn't always been that way, and even during the darkest times in my life I think I tried to keep the most positive outlook... but oh well, that's just my own ramblings...

...
I am so full right now...I just had L&L with Cic and her coworker. Loco moco, that thing sure is filling. I had to take a min-nap in the car before I came back up. Whew....thank goodness I'm not too busy today, I actually finished everything I needed to do with time to spare. Now I can go and chill at the all-hands meeting later on. woohoo...

I was listening to that Michael Jackson arraignment stuff on the news earlier this morning. In my whole life I don't think there's been a bigger circus for an arraignment...I don't even know if I've spelled that right, and I used it 2x already. Oh well...

Anecdote of the day
One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the
dishes at the kitchen sink.

She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair
sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.

She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of
your hairs white, Mom?"

Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and
make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."

The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then
said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma`s hairs are white?"

Thursday, January 15, 2004

I am an emtpy tupperware container...

Not many thoughts on my mind today...just droning along...and had to go on a test drive with our Japanese Engineers...but...

-25 in jersey tomorrow DANG...

anectdote of the day
A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with herfive and six year olds.

After explaining the commandment to "honor" thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?"

Without missing a beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, "Thou shall not kill..."

"God wasn't made to be tailored to our wants..."

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

:)

My e-mail:
"I hope you're keeping warm over there. Any suggestions as to what I can bring? Also, I was wondering if you could find out some information for me, if you can. I wanted to know if you could ask the Holiday Inn staff if the TV's were equipped with RCA inputs. And if it was possible to attach a PS2 to it, as I do not really see myself going out much with the cold weather and all. Anyway, that's only if you have some extra time and if it is not too much of a hassle. "

Response from ____ 10 minutes later:
"All the TVs that I have seen so far have RCA inputs on the front (i.e. Room 318).

First defense is information. Always constantly check the weather for Real Feel temperatures. bookmark www.accuweather.com and enter Totowa's zip code of 07512 and click on Details or Hourly weather for the day you are inquiring. Keep in mind even if the temperature shows 9 degrees F with the wind chill factor that could easily be -12 degrees below 0.

First of all avoid cotton, cotton waffle or woolen thermals they are too bulky, specially if you have to move around in a C-Class with a fleece pullover and a coat or jacket on top of that. My suggestion for the cold weather is to go to Sport Chalet, REI or Adventure 16 and get 1 or preferably 2 sets of Hot Chilis MTF (Moisture Transfer Fabric) tops and bottoms, they are a little expensive but worth the warmth and wide temperature range (going inside and outside) they do not hold body odors, you may not even need to wash them while you are here if you alternate between 2 sets. Additionally get a couple of sets of polypropylene thermal liner socks and a couple of good sets of warm wool socks. Try to bring 3/4 height or higher boots made for snow that are waterproof or have Gore-Tex with them because the snow might be anywhere from 2 to 6 inches (like what we are getting by tomorrow morning).

On top of the thermals try to get a zippered fleece (polyester and Lycra) pullover (that is windproof) which is made for the cold not fashion, wool sweaters are not too windproof. And a good shell with a hood made for snowboarding or skiing should work out fine. A good cashmere or polyester beanie with or without a baklava with round it out. A good long scarf (wool or polyester) and winter gloves lined with Thinsulate would be great, you could get good deals on these at Marshall's or Wal-Mart. But, the rest of the clothing is best from a specialty ski/snow/outdoor store. When you are cold it does not matter how much it costs? The good thing about the Holiday Inn-Totowa is that it is beside a Ski Barn, but their inventory is kind of low on some items or sizes. Anyway if you shop in LA you have more time to get what suits you rather than going for compromises at the last minute. It would be good to get sunglasses (maybe prescription) made for the higher contrast during cloudy or overcast conditions in the snow (somewhere around 16% light transmittance). I hope this helps to keep you warm but it may run you at least $500.00 just the thermal tops and bottoms alone are over $200.00 for 2 sets. Remember it is what you put on the inside closest to your body is what will keep you warm not how many layers of cotton or nontechnical fibers that you put on top.

There are also some winter clothing tips in today's edition of USA Today, Section A, page 3.

Kindest Regards,
______ "


Some people are just good people....

I am a 3/4 day...

Jersey trip
I'm goin to Jersey again, and this time it's gonna be freezing cold...I'm talking single digit and below freezing weather(I'm not sure what the weather is exactly, but that's what the forecasts say and people that have been going have said that too). Here are a few key points to this trip...I'm gonna miss the football games on Sunday, which is a bummer cuz I really wanted to see them. I might be able to catch some of the first game at LAX and the second game at EWR...or hopefully they replay it or something later that night. It's gonna be crazy cold, so I don't foresee myself venturing out too much, so I wanna bring my PS2 and play FFX. I wonder if the Holiday Inn at Tototwa has RCA inputs.... Study or playstation...hmmm....hard decision...

No I in team
The strange thing about being in an environment where one works with so many people is that one gets a feel for the type of people they can and cannot(well, that might be the wrong word choice because you HAVE to work with people even if they're hard to work with), or have difficulty working with. The one guy I'm working with right now on this voice phrase thing for MB is really cool. I think we just think kindof the same and have the same approach to the situation, and therefore it is easy to work with each other. We treat each other like equals, although he is probably about 20-30 years my senior. Plus, we talk to each other all the time and we're really nice to each other, so we have that comeraderie connection. There are people I see around that I would kindof be hesitant to work with, just because I've seen how they are with they're working with other people, and it doesn't seem like it'd be very smooth. I can just imagine the difficulty with upper management interviewing new employees, because a big factor you are not quite sure about is if they have good team dynamics or not. Because even the smartest people in the world can make a team less efficient because of their lack of team-manship.

Gametime
Gonna get out of work early today, cuz me and the boys are goin to a Laker game baby!!! Only thing is that Shaq is doubtful, Kobe and Malone are both in the IL, so we'll most likely get to see only GP and Carmelo. Hopefully the bench steps it up tonight and gives us a spectacular show anyway. Woohooo!!! Saaawwwweeeeeet! Can't wait!

Today's anecdote
A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing.

She would occasionally walk around to see each child`s work.

As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked
what the drawing was.

The girl replied, "I`m drawing God."
The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like."

Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl
replied, "They will in a minute."

"Practicing and believing are two totally different things."

Tuesday, January 13, 2004

I am a TPS report...

Moderation, oh moderation...
The saying, "Everything in moderation" could not be more true, in almost all scenarios, I think. Especially in the work invironment. No one likes to have absolutely nothing to do so that they are bored out of their minds, and on the other side of the spectrum, no one likes to be so busy that leaping out of that 2nd story window starts to look more appealing with each passing moment. No, moderation is what we want. To be just busy enough so that the day goes by fast and before you know it, it's time to go home. I am so wishing I had some of that moderation right now, cuz I am definitely swamped. I guess I'm getting a tiny little taste of what Cic goes through for busy season. Man, I can't wait til this project is over.

Eavesdropper!!!
I totally eavesdrop on my neighbor Kim. Well, actually, not totally, because I don't understand a word she says(she speaks vietminese)but I kinda do. I know she talks to her boyfriend ALL the time, which is cool, but sometimes it sounds like she's crying. And she totally keeps to herself, so she's kindof a hard read. I guess I'm just trying to listen to see if she IS crying, so I could ask her if she was okay. Because I think it would be kindof messed up of me if she WAS crying and she knows I probably knew, but never did anything about it.

Man, I am still at work, damn...well, this is what happens when you're swamped....I've been doing okay with keeping up w/ my resolutions so far, all except for working out more and studying...but that's because I'm at work...just like right now...so I'll have to put those on hold til I get back from Jersey...unless I bring some books w/ me, blech...

Anectdote for the day
A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.

The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.

The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale.
Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a
human; it was physically impossible.

The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".
The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"
The little girl replied, "Then you ask him"

Wednesday, January 07, 2004

I am a neck in a vice grip...

showers
Man, my weekday showers suck compared to my weekend or holiday ones...well at least my weekend and holiday ones when I'm not in a hurry. I hate rushed showers, they're so unsatisfying. I mean, I feel clean and all, but I've noticed that after I take a shower on a weekend or when I'm not so rushed, I feel much more relaxed. I guess that means I should wake up earlier...but even then, you still have that "I need to go to work today" or whatever feeling looming over your head so I think it's still not AS satisfactory as when you're just taking a shower to take it. Man, I'm so glad today is pretty much my friday.

Aladdin got screwed
I was kinda, kinda not watching Aladdin with London this morning as I was making my lunch. And I just realized that movie had some weird things about it. First of all, Aladdin stole stuff. Yeah, he fed those two little kids w/ the bread he stole but if he didn't see them, he would've had them for himself. And Abu, always steals like the coins and stuff, so he had to learn that from someone, and that someone is Aladdin. That guy was a thief, sheesh, what message are we sending to our children? He he he. Okay, that was just a little thing. But here's the big thing, Aladdin got screwed by the Genie! Yes, that's right, S-C-R-E-W-E-D!!! So he has 3 wishes, and his first wish is to become a prince. BUUUUT, the genie only makes him to LOOK like a prince, entourrage and all...but he's not a real prince! He didn't even have a kingdom to be prince of! I guess he wasn't so smart afterall, overlooking that small teensy weensy detail and all. What a freak.

Like I mentioned earlier, today is like my Friday, because I'm going to CES(the World Consumer Electronics Show) in Vegas for the rest of the week. Cic is even going w/ me, which is even cooler. And the show, that's not even work, we're just gonna get to check out all the new cool gadgets and gizmos comin out soon. Hell yeah, sometimes, I love my job. He he he.

Boos for the day
This is actually the boo for Monday, but as it is, I haven't blogged in a while, so it shall be the boo of the day...and that is....seniority. So one of the projects I've been working on(I've had to do 2 at the same time because we were pretty shorthanded for a while with everyone on vacation and other things), they had someone else be project lead for it because he has been here longer than me. And I know both systems way more, well because I'd been working on them so long. I also know that to be lead takes more than just knowing the system, it's about leadership capabilities and communication skills and all that. But I think I have those down okay. Anyway, it's cool though, cuz I like the guy and he asks me questions about anything he's unsure about. Yeah, I'm not bitter, he he he.

I have to go back to Jersey for work starting on MLK weekend. That bites...what's more, I come back on the day of my b-day. I wanted to plan something for that day, but I'm kinda skeptic, cuz it'd be sad if I did plan something w/ my friends and they showed up and my flight gets delayed or something...or worse, my plane crashes(knock on wood). But I guess we'll see, I still want to do something that day...decisions decisions....sometimes, I hate work, he he he.

Man, I say, "he he he" a lot....he he he

additional resolutions
-dust at least once a week (the house AND my room)
-do laundry at least every other week
-fold laundry right after it's done
-keep my room organized
-study for the EIT(well that starts next week and ends in April, so I guess that's short term, but nonetheless, still a resolution)

"Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down, the medicine go doooowwwn, medicine go down...."